For some reason, it seems that everything is simply going wrong these days. I stay positive and say, "Everything happens for a reason. Everything will be okay and it will all work out." But will everything work out, will everything be okay? My car engine blew up yesterday because I neglected putting oil in my car, my mistake. I apparently am screwing up my life according to my parents, and they can't take it anymore and don't want to deal with all my problems, therefore I need to move elsewhere. I have no money to fix my car, nor to rent an apartment. I have to drop my classes so I can get a second job. The bad luck goes on and on...Can I keep saying everything happens for a reason and everything will work out? I certainly hope so. I am trying to look on the brighter side and stay positive throughout all of these hardships, but it's starting to get more and more difficult. I have a full time job, I am going to school, I am modeling for some extra cash as well. I try to go to the gym daily and I am eating healthier to look and feel better. Yes, I did choose a different path from my mormon parents in socially drinking and going out to the clubs/bars with my friends. Is that why everything is going wrong? Because I chose to not take the mormon way? Or is it all karma biting me in the ass for things i'm not sure why? I suppose I will never know. I need to keep going on and I need to make it. A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty. The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and acheives the impossible. For I am an optimist, it doesn't seem to be much use being anything else.
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